Welcome to my little spot here on the web. FeelingImpossible.Com is a blog/collective/design site of mine to hold all of my designs, fansite list and just to say what I want. Here, you will find my online journal, all my fansites I've worked on/own, and my portfolio of layouts, wallpapers, and signatures!

Site Name: Feeling-Impossible.Com
Type: Blog / Collective
Founder: Cindy
Started: June of '09
Version: 3 (tres)
Hosted By: Gertie @ Fan-Sites.Org


"when the world says give up; hope whispers one more try."


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Cindy. Loves music more than anything. Fahrenheit, Varsity Fanclub, Relient K. Obsessed with After School (Nana). obsseses easily. new people. PERSONAL TASTE; dramas. vietnamese. 5'2. SIXteen. May19th.; Hates liars. I dont go anywhere without my music. oylmpuscameras=love. Georgia.

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1:58 <3 Nana

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>> an attempt to tip the scales <<

I had an amazing Friday. As you can probably see, NEW LAYOUT(: yay.. Featuring AFTER SCHOOL! yes, yes. it is quite obvious who my obsession is.. I actually have accepted Lizzy. Haha.. you can scream and shout about me being a hypocrite later, but now I like her. She's very cute. NANA is still the most amazing-ist, forever best-est .. haha. See, shes just so amazing I had to create some new words there; On the flip side, my ipod BROKE. yes, my obviously concerned compadres, broken. How am i supposed to do everything that i need to do on my ipod without my ipod.. (doesnt sound mysterious at all).

I'm lying in a state of denial. I think i've convinced myself that maybe one day i'll wake up and it'll be fixed. just like that. Who am i kidding?

Music.. lately its been Hit Me Baby by Shinee, Easy by BEAST/B2ST, and Without U by 2PM. (Francy will hate me for that one.. he has some sort of hate for 2PM.. I don't complain about his ongoing mini obsession of Hyori & he doesn't laugh at me when I randomly say something about After School. But 2PM is way out of this semi agreement we have going on..);

Rant About Someone I Know But You Have No Idea Who They Are..
this extremely frustrates me to the point where i dont care for capitalization anymore. listen, when you have a girlfriend, she is supposed to be important to you. correct me if im wrong, but this is the same in europe, canada, china, and everywhere else I can think of. so when you go and say your girlfriend is whatever or that she's "not pretty" / "doesn't matter" in front of other girls you think you might have a chance with, this will pretty much throw off every girl on the planet. and id hate to pull out my pitch-fork and run after you (mostly because i can't handle the intense exercise it takes for mob-work). please just get it together.
"glad i got that out of my system" rant is officially over.

drama talk && why are they so dramatic; ..because they're dramas.. (lame joke but i get points for saying it anyway) Currently watching PERSONAL TASTE! haha, its pretty much amazing. KaiIn&&Jinho; Anyway, the the left, you see the oh so amazing Nana belting out those amazing notes with that amazing. Of course, you can't hear them, but just pretend like you can. I believe that my obsessions get annoying to other people after a while. It's hard when you have no one to obsess with. So im stuck here, knowing and getting excited for all this after school stuff and guess what? no one cares

Haha, just me being dramatic again. I really feel like watching The O.C all over from the beginning. Not that I enjoy Melissa either getting drugged, going crazy, or dying several times... (soaps are still soaps);

stay calm, you're about to be bombarded with mblaq animations


++ By: Cindy, 07 May 2010 ++
>> the games that play us <<

Hello(: I finally have a new computer! Same monitor though.. but atleast I have something to use. Which I'm extremely happy with. To start things off, this year is going by way too fast. School year I mean. Last year went by so frustratingly slow. Well, the first semester anyway.

It's been a year (about 5 days off) since I've last seen Chen. He left for China in March 2009 and that was pretty much it. But then his Birthday came around again and I got to go to his house to give him his present: clickk.

Anyway, the AFTER SCHOOL obsession is still in motion, folks. They just released: BANG! which was amazing. Nana HAD MORE SCREENTIME! Which is all I can wish for(: haha.

Well, thats it for life right now. Spring break after FOUR DAYS!

++ By: Cindy, 28 Mar 2010 ++
>> songs to love and die by <<

Its been quite a while and sadly, I can sum up what happened in this update. Don't get it? Well, bluntly, It means my life is completely and utterly boring. Now don't get me wrong, I don't blame God for this. This one's all on me right? I'm surprisingly content right now. Because in this mess of family drama, bad grades, and practically no sense of direction, what i do have weighs much more. (don't laugh, i have the right to be deep once and a while)

I've recently entered a new realm of Kpop music. -gasp- Ha, no really I never thought I'd ever listen to it. But somehow, it got me. Let's just say it started with AFTER SCHOOL aka the BEST GIRL BAND IN THE HISTORY OF GIRL BANDS. I guess you can call me obsessed. And since my personality is based on addictions.. this is just another phase, right?

Now, this girl here. Her name is Park Kahi. She's the leader of 'said', After School. And theres a reason her face is plastered right next to this. You just cannot deny it, she's perfect. If perfect ever existed, of course. And you can;t help but girl-crush about her because like I said, perfect. She dances, sings, and I'm telling you, she does it all! Maybe, you haven't understood the point I'm trying to get across here.. PARK KAHI = actually, words cannot explain how deeply amazing this girl is. I don't know about you but 50 years from now when she bites the dust.. I will weep and weep I will... x]

School is getting better. Im really getting to like the people. Theres a new girl in my home ec class named Cindy. And she's viet. Its a bit weird for me because well, her name is Cindy. I was never in this situation before. What do I do? Now I feel like every "Eric" or "Brittany" in the world, stuck with a gazillion other people with the same name. These are the times i wish my name was something like Chair or Pin. Something common that NO ONE would ever think of naming their child. To save them from embarrassment of course. But no, I won't think of that.



Chen's birthday is MARCH THE TWENTY SEVENTH. I knew it was the twenty something. Bin called me about it but I have no idea what to get him. Then it pretty much hit me that I didn't know what he liked, what he didn't like. Or that much about him yet its different. I'm about to go in "deep" territory so shield your eyes. I can't figure out why he meant so much to me. && I still can;t. LIFE IS CRAZY

He invited me to his sort of birthday thing. Which sort of maybe made my day but we're pass all that mushy stuff, remember? Um, yeah I've been making recordings. The only official ones I have so far is Because Of You and I Only Have Feelings For You. Hopefully they get better, even though this patience thing really isn't for me..

Went ICE SKATING with Charlotte, Steph, Kevin, Dianna.. etc. last weekend. Was pretty fun. Stephanie didn't skate because her leg hurt and she just texted and made fun of charlotte&i falling. Its true, we fell a ton. Mostly because of me. I tend to drag people down with me, first Adna, Erin, Jennifer, and now Charlotte. Admit it, im a curse. Ice skating is sort of different from actually roller blading, you fall alot more, you bleed, and its cold. Extremely, bitterly cold. Other than that, I liked it(:

Back to my AFTER SCHOOL rant. Theyre adding a NEW MEMBER. How could Pledis do this me? After School does not need a new member. no, no, no. Don't fix it if it isnt broken. And AS is definitely not broken. This is ... oh my gosh.. its like 2012 is hitting us early and giving AS a new member... i can't handle this.. (im just kidding, haha.... im just not happy that they're adding people..less lines for nana..) -false rant-

AFTER SCHOOL COMEBACK: MARCH 25 / SINGLE: BANG
whooooo baby baby whooooooooooooo ; so obsessing...


++ By: Cindy, 17 Mar 2010 ++
>> snow days don't come easy <<

It was snowing yesterday. I mean, if you call less than an inch of ice scattered across your lawn 'snowing'. Happy belated New Years; This year was better than the last. Co 10, Henry, Steph and everyone (Except Charlotte -she did modeling that day ;]-) went to check out the Peach Drop in Atlanta.

Which was sort of disappointing. We arrived at about 11:55, walked / ran / sprinted / dragged ( its a complicated process.. ) ourselves to where we could see, and then at the strike of 12, the peach slowly ( so, so slowly ) fell. Longest minute of my life. Other than the minutes it took to run the mile in gym. Being a struggling athlete, I pretty much experienced the worst, most terrifying 9 minutes of my life. (maybe i'm exaggerating, maybe not)

Completely Random O.C Quote! Season One: Trip to T-Juana

Summer: Who gets past by a van full of nuns? Oh. Wait. Who? Cohen does!
Seth: They have God on their side, Summer. Okay. I'm not going to beat Jesus.

Yeah, so if it was completely obvious, I've been watching The O.C lately; I think its safe to say that I love love love Seth & Summer(: ; I've watched all four seasons and ordered the complete series on DVD.

Another 90 days of school this semester. I'm not sure how I feel about it just yet. It's sinking in (is that even normal?) Charlotte and I are working on a collaboration we're doing. I mean, if we ever get pass the "picking song" stage of course.

TaiwanLove [DOT] Net is almost ready to be open; A lot of work on the pages but I'm extremely proud of the layout. Anyway, I'll be going... best wishes.

x. Updated The Portfolio - 1/8/2010

++ By: Cindy, 08 Jan 2010 ++
>> prince kashaba once said . . . <<

Hola amigos. Would it be an understatement to say its been a little while since I last 'blogged' (im not sure if thats a word..) A lot has happened. Let's start shall we? [look at me, im fifteen, and im already talking like im 80 years old telling my grandchildren some honorable story they don't want to hear.] Well, new site. I don't have the name down just yet but something about Taiwan Idols/Dramas. Watching a mix of new dramas. HotShot, MoMo Love, Hi My Sweetheart, Autumn's Concerto. Usually, I wouldn't take on this much at once but MoMo Love, HMS, and Autumn's Concerto are all 'ongoing' so they release new episodes each week.


Man, these are the times I wish I had Taiwanese channels. Oh, and it might help just a tad if I knew mandarin. You know, if all else fails, I could definitely go and hire a professional mandarin reader to read it to me while I watch. Nah.

So Anup [ yeah, that vegetarian kid i've known since pre-k ;) ] turned sixteen yesterday; I remember once it was his birthday in 5th grade and he brought in vegetarian cupcakes. WOWZAHH. Amy, Anup, and I used to play at the tether ball field during recess back in elementary school.

MUSIC!. Um, I've been listening to Fahrenheit, S.H.E, and Tank. Very little music these days, mostly dramas. Dramas and homework. *GASP* Yes, I said it; homework. It's a school thing. x_X' - anyway, I'm on break. yay for thanksgiving. We made place mats in home-ec and I'm telling you, i drew the cutest little girl in a polka dotted dress. Okay, maybe not the cutest, but you get the picture.

More about music, I have a recording due on the 15th of December. Not sure how that'll turn out. Helping some people write songs. My websites are downhill though. I've had no time what so ever for them. Ahh, I'm cursed to be LAZY for all of eternity! I should be shunned, shunned I tell you;

Why must Mandarin be so hard to learn. If only I could travel back in time, force my baby self to learn it, and race back. Then I'd know it all right now. Although that's pretty much impossible and I'm pretty sure against science, it's still a thought. Hey, that could work with guitar, too! Okay, done dreaming.

Talked to Chen last Friday. Pretty much the 'usual' Chen conversation. "Hello? Can you repeat that?." Haha, but then... [wow, i got you there, didn't i? made it sound oh so dramatic] ha, no. I told him I was learning mandarin and we started saying random stuff in mandarin. You know, to see if I understood or if he understood [thats 'ming bai' by the by. yeah, i know. total show off] what I was saying. He asked me if someone was teaching me. So then I said, "Bin taught me how to say I love you but that's it. Wo Ai Ni."

[Video: HotShot Theme Song by ShowLuo]
one of those 'unsatisfied couple pairing' dramas


He laughed (probably because he was there when Bin pulled the "wo ai ni" trick= i asked bin how to say how are you, and he said 'wo ai ni' to try and get me to say it. please. o__0') Anyway, back to the story. Chen laughed and said, "i love you, too." Yeah, pretty much made my day. Nothing big or anything.. x______X

Making cookies tomorrow! Ah, I can already smell the white chocolate. Yeah, BABY! Uh huh, Uh huh.. *does crazy dance when no ones looking* phew.. -wipes barely visible sweat off forehead like i just fought off a thousand buff ninjas- ;; So, I've pretty much grown to find that nothings ever going to happen if you don't meet it up half way. So what do you say we get this thing going?

++ By: Cindy, 25 Nov 2009 ++

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